So worth it

Have really messed up my pelvis and all ajoining tendons, muscles and ligaments. Between taking pain meds, icing my hoo-ha, sleeping and being on general bed rest...it's given me a lot of time to think. ANd eat. So I combined the two in an email to an old ballet teacher of mine. A man from China who 'taught' me when I was dancing professionally/taking class with various ballet companies. To put it the least graphically, since this was "old school ballet" he could and did get away with just about anything. In old school ballet any sort of treatment of your students is acceptable, even if they are legal adults. Ballerinas are well known for being children. And as well known as I am for not putting up with garbage, I put up with him because in that time and place that was what you did. You did whatever it took to succeed, did whatever you were told, no matter how dangerous or painful it might be.

There used to be a joke about ballet teachers, probably more true than funny: "If you get fired from being a school teacher because you mis-treat your students, or if you hate kids, love to scream at them, make them cry and call them fat- we'll take you! Come, fit in and be welcomed into the world of Ballet!"

Guess you had to be there. It's not really funny anymore. BUT, I emailed my teacher and told him that since being in his classes with the company I've gained about 30 pounds. And that now, being injured and unable to dance or exercise, I've likely gained more- adding that even a 'normal' person thought I was getting 'chunky'.

He hasn't gotten back to me. I think he may have had a heart-attack after reading my email. I know it's wrong and evil, and could be the pain meds I'm on, but the image in my brain of this happening just makes me laugh. Yeah, I can just see it now.. "Oh my god! Hen-a-ry! (Being Chinese, he apparently couldn't pronounce i's or l's) Was fat before! Did not think could get more fat! 30 pounds! Ack!" Then he just grabs his chest and keels over. Serves him right. He was always complaining to me about my weight, among other things.